Hmmm...

lmenye ak x story kt cni..yesterday birthday ak..ak dh dpt ksut.hehehehe..bf ak jd org yg ke-2 wish kt ak..yg prtame spe??sshhh.......mne lah bg taw..secret..cluenye dye sorg laki..trial ak ari 2 okla,just add maths fail..spm tgl lg 12 ari.tkut woo..mama ckp kne dptkn at least 4A..tp target ak lain.hah?ape?nk taw??sshhhhh...!mne blh..malula!!lg ape ek??lately ak slalu tringt someone ni..dye ckgu kt tusyen ak..ak rndu sgt kt dye..hopefully,if ade umo yg pnjang,i'll see him again eventhough just 4 a while..okla,ak nk tdo..pnt..bye!!

dh lme ak x story kt cni..yela,my sister bwk laptop g klantan 4 study..ak nk story lg about me n him..finally we're together back now..ak btl2 xleh khilgn dye..i love him so much.ak hrp ak akn happy dgn dye..

lg 4 ari nk raye..xtaw lg nk blek kampung ke x..holiday 1 week je..after this holiday,trus trial exam..huhuhuhu...xleh nk g open house..kne study..hmm..lg ape eh nk story??actually ak mngantuk ni..but dh lme ak x online..until here yg ak blh story..nk tdola..bye!!

SAYANGI AKU..

 b, b x rndu beby ke??24,7 beby tringt n rndu kt b..susah tuk beby telan sume ni..knp jln ni jgk b msti plih..ati beby trseksa,trluke b..b ckp b happy dgn beby,b ckp lg beby ni trlalu special buat b..b ckp b x pnah dpt makwe mcm beby..b ckp beby ni ikhlas,sgup buat ape je tuk b..mmg pun beby ikhlas buat ape sje tuk b bcoz b dh amik ati beby..b dh bg beby tangkap cintan dgn b..b ckp beby mnje,pndai amik ati b,always buat b geram dgn loyer bruk beby ni..ni pun buat b syg kt beby..b taw x?beby rndu gler dkt loyer bruk b,suare b..dlu tiap2 ari dpt dgr suare b,tp skrg x dh..seksa ati beby trpakse pura2 happy n tnang dpn sume org like nothing had happened 2 me..tp dlm ati ni hnye allah je yg taw..ati beby xpnah stop crying since b dh xde dlm idup beby..b tawkn beby xleh idup tnpe b??b pun pnah ckp bnde yg sme..tp knp sume ni msti trjd???b dh amik ati beby,skrg sng2 je kn tglkn beby??beby xde smangat nk idup tnpe b..skrg dh xde lg org yg blh kongsi gelak ktawe dgn beby,dh xde jgk org yg tiap2 ari say i love u,i miss u n i need u dkt beby..beby still mnghrpkn kte mcm dlu..beby nk b je.beby klu blh nk idup dgn b je..b nk beby buktikn ape lg tuk b fhm n taw btape sygnye beby dkt b??b sorg je yg blh fhm beby,fhm ape yg beby nk,fhm prangai beby..b pnah kate dlm byk2 ex b dlu,beby sorg je yg fhm b n baik sgt2..lps ni klu beby sdih n ade problem,sape yg nk buat beby spai beby ktawa blek??dlu b je yg pndai buat mcm 2..even b x hensem,but ati beby x pnah kisah..ati beby just ske dkt b je..even dh 3 weeks this incident happened,but ati beby x pnah dpt accept ape yg trjd kt kte..i love u so much b.. I LOVE U SUHAIMI!!

org baru..

6 july dpt lg sorg ank buah..baby boy..abg ak yg ke2 dpt lg ank..ni ank yg ke3..huhuhuhu...dh 4 ank buah ak.hopefully yg ni nti x nkal mcm abg dye..

di tinggalkn..

cinta ak kt dye umpama lirik dlm lagu ni..10 of july was a very sad day 4 me..how could him leaf me like that??i love so much..i cant live without him..its so hard 4 me act like nothing was happened 2 me..i force myself 2 smile,act happy and calm infront of other people but inside my heart no one knows how i feel..my heart never stop crying..i'll never let anyone take his place in my heart until i meet my real prince charming..my love 4 him is come from my deep sincere heart..i cried for 2 weeks everynite..ati ak skrg seksa sgt2 without him..rndu ni x taw nk ckp mcm mne..ak sgup ketepikan ego ak n mrayu kt dye 4 jgn bt ak mcm ni almost evaryday until now,but dye ttap dgn kputusan dye..why all this must happened??sakitnye ble kte ditinggalkn..rse smangat dh hilg..ak ikhlas buat ape sje tuk dye slme ni..ak still mnghrpkn dye utk kmbali kt ak even dye dh luka n kcewakn ati ak..

bf ak accident smlm..siang td dye dh kuar hosptal..katenye retak pinggang..ak nk g tgk dye kt umah dye kt sunway,but bru td dye otw balik pahang..rht kt sne je..lme docter bg dye mc.ak rndu dye..i love him so much..btl ke sumpah ak mnjd kt dyemse ak gduh dgn dye last week..ak sumpah dye accident..jhtnye ak..but that time ak tgh mrh gler..hopefully bkn dr sumpah ak 2 la..okla,ak xde mood nk story pnjang2..ak pun tgh skit ni..bye!

huhh..!lme btol ak x story kt cni..broadband x byrla katekn..last school holiday ak g kem..best gak la.byk kwn ak dpt..hehehe..sminggu ak kt sne..rndu lak kt dorg..huhuhu..miss farah,adila,aina,rina,suzalin n khaireen..ari sbtu blek kem,ahad ak dmam..trpkse lak ak bt holiday lbh..last monday report card day,adela gak pnigkatan in my rsult..bio je yg fail..ak kne start rvision dh..tgl bpe bln je lg 4 spm exam..okla,ak ade hal lain nk bt ni,bye!

benci!

ak plg bnci dgn org yg blum knl ak spnuhnye,then sng2 je nk judge ak..!!ingt ak ni ape??mcmla ak ni truk sgt??pas 2 dh susah dtg cri ak..pjuk n mrayu kt ak..ingt ak nk tlg ke??dlu ko hina ak,ko sng ko lpe ak!!pas 2 ak tlg lngsung ko x hrgai..ko ingt ko 2 ex bf ak,ak sng2 je ke nk ksiankn ko??blah la!!!sng2 ko je suro ak bwk kuar duit biasiswa ak then bg kt ko??ko ingt ko sape dlm idup ak???ak pun susah gak..tp xdela nk mnyusahkn org mcm ko!!drpd ak tlg ko,baik ak tlg org yg tdo tpi jln 2..!!ak ni bknla sombong..actually ak ni sorg yg pmalu..org yg dh knl lme dgn ak je yg taw ak ni jnis yg mcm mne..so,klu blum knl rpat dgn ak,dont u easily dare judge me like u know me 4 a long time..!!ok??

after a month

lmenye ak x online n dh lme jgk ak x story kt cni..hmm..mcm2 jd kt ak spnjang ak x online ni.rlationship between me n him kjp baik kjp x..ntahla..pntla ak asyik kne mngalah je..btul ke ak ni x ikhlas lngsung brkorban dlm rlationship ni??ak syg dye sgt2..ak mmg x blh idup tnpa dye..dhla,xyhla cter psl dye..actually ak bru je abis mid term exam..now school holiday..but ckgu bg a lot of homework..the 2nd week of this holiday,abah will send me 2 the camp.5 until 11..spnjang exam,ak skit je..ni bru sihat..last monday ak pitam dlm kls..so ak x amik paper bio..abisla bio ak fail..nk buat mcm mne?dh ak skit..this monday or wednesday ak nk g watch movie..off coursela nur kasih..mama pun minat cter 2..ak nk ajk mama je la.klu tgk ngn mama,blh bodek mama..klu g ngn kwn or boyfriend ak,dpt duit ckup2 je..ak dhla tgh btl2 xde duit ni..hmm..ape lg nk story ehh??ooh..famly prob pun byk gak..mcm2 jd kt famly ak..but ak xleh nk story kt cni..biarla rahsia..okla..ni pun ak online kt cc.kt umah nk online x blh..akak ak x byr bil broadband dye..okla,i got 2 go..later mama bsing plak..bye!!

love conflict

ape lg yg dye nk dr ak ni??xckup lg ke ape yg ak dh korbankn slme ni kt dye??why suddenly all this hapen???ak syg dye sgt2..ak trlalu rndukn dye..ak dh x ckup smpurna lg ke bg dye?ak xnk lg mnangis bcoz of u syg..but why this tears always falling down 4 u syg?u said u dont want make me cry again..?but di  setiap air mata baby yg jtuh ni just tuk b..air mata yg btul2 tkut khilangan b..baby x sgup khilangan b lg..baby jelez bcoz baby trlalu sygkn b.baby xnk pmpuan lain ade kt dlm ati b slain baby..jiwa baby glisah fkirkn b..jgnla tglkn baby..b x nmpak ke ape yg baby bt slme ni just 4 our rlationship 2 be last long??does our rlationship will be end like this??ya Allah..jgnla kau biarkn dye pegi dr idupku ya Allah..slamatknla hbungan kami ni ya Allah..ak trlalu mncintai drinye ..ari2 ak xkn sempurna tanpa dye disisi ku ya Allah..but if our rlationship spai dicni je ya allah,ak redha dgn ktentuanmu..tp kau tunjukknla pdnye suatu ari nti yg ak trlalu mncintai drinye ya allah..eventhough our relationship just until here,u're always in my heart 4ever..MARIAM CINTA SUHAIMI..!!!

Gigi

huhuhuhu...sakitnye gigi ak..mama kate nk tumbuh geraham bongsu.ak nk mkn mknan yg liat2 pun dh xblh dh..i mean bkn x blh lngsung but if mkn mknan yg liat kne kunyah slowly..but ak brsyukur sgt ak slme ni x pnah pun ade problem gigi..kre elokla..x pnah pun kne simen or whatever..maklumla..ak dlu mnum susu bdn mama..so susu ibu ni byk khasiatnye..eh!ape yg ak mngarut spai susu ibu ni??but ade kne mngena jgkkn..?whatever la..yg ak taw skrg ni gigi ak tgh skit..nk mkn pun seksa.lucky ak x kuat mkn sgt..

luahan rasa..

susah sgt ke die nk fhm ak skrg ni??ak nk bg taw ape yg trpndam dlm ati ni x trluah..ari2 ak nangis sbb die..asyik tdo x ingt dunia..kate syg??kate cnte??nk brkorban ckit pun xleh ke??jnji dgn ak dh xnk bg ak nangis sbb die,but bt jgk..asyik ak je ingt kt die,tp die x ingt pun kt ak..ketahuila b,beby syg b sgt2..but why b bt beby mcm ni??beby tukis kt cni pun smbil tresak2 nangis..mayb b dh jemu dgn beby  kn???klu beby mrjuk pun b bt mcm nothing had happen kn?spai ati b kn??dlu b x lyn beby mcm ni pun..sdih beby b bt beby mcm ni..why b dh lain sgt skrg??why b???why??????why b xnk fhm skrg ape yg beby rse???beby try sdaya upaya beby tuk smbunyikn ape yg beby rse dr b..but beby dh x blh tahan..b nk ke mnyesal x sudah??nti mnangis air mate drah skali pun dh x gne..dhla..dh byk sgt air mata beby mngalir sbb b..but i just want u 2 know,whatever happen,my heart is only 4 u..

INSAN YG KU SYG..

SUHAIMI..a.k.a bdk bcuk,a.k.a bdk gtal,a.k.a bdk x malu,a.k.a my prince charming..ak dh lme knl die..since form 3.even kteorg capel ptus,capel ptus..but ntahla..slh sorg antare kami msti akn cri..die la org yg brtahta di atiku dlu,kni n 4ever..only him can make me happy.even he's not so romantic,but he can understand me well..I LOVE HIM SO MUCH..ak x sgup khilgn die lg..skit sgt ble die xde dlm idup ak..xde sape lg yg blh rampas ati ak dr die..JUST HIM IN MY HEART..kami sme2 dh bljr dr ksilapan msing2..n now we're happy.he always make me laugh all the time..time ak tgh sdih,die pndai bt ak ktawe..2 yg ak syg die sgt2..biarla org nk kate die x hensem,but bg ak die dh prfect..die sgup msg best friend ak n mntak tlg best friend ak tgk2kn ak..ooh..so sweet..ak dh xnk laki lain slain die..i just want him 4ever.die syg ak sgt2..ak pun syg die sgt2..kami msing2 if x dgr suare sehari,mmg x duk sng..rse cm someting yg x prfect..rndu jgn ckpla..mkin ari mkin brtambah..hehehehe....

truk kn org brcnte ni??the words yg die tgu ak ckp tiap2 ari ialah I NEED U!!he said if ak ckp mcm 2 die rse happy sgt..xde lg laki mcm die yg ak pnah jupe..MARIAM JAMILA n SUHAIMI are always be together..hnye ALLAH blh psahkn kte..

yg mne 1 ni?

problem,problem,problem...which 1 ptut ak plih??Am or S???ak dh trus trang kt Am last nite yg ak lngsung xde prasaan kt die..ati ak just tuk S..ak dh try tuk mncintai kau Am,but ak x blh.tiap kali ak cbe,ati ak mkin kuat mngatekn ati n prasaan ak just 4 S..but kau ckp wlau ape pun jd,ko xkn lpskn ak..cnte xleh dpakse Am..ak x sgup khilangan S..die amat brmkne bg ak..die slalu hburkn ak,happykn ati ak..Am x pnah lngsung cbe nk twan ati ak..kate syg?but knp x buat ape yg blh buat ak happy..why kau x mcm die??ak nk kau lpskn ak,but kau xnk..ak xblh tuk mncintai dri kau..my heart is only 4 him..Am always bzi spai xde mse nk lyn ak.but S pun bzi,ade je mse die lyn ak..ak lonely.i need someone like S..S kate wlau ape pun jd die ttap tgu ak..Am said,die stil nk kt ak.even ak mnghilgkn dri,die ttap akn cri ak spai dpt..dua2 nk ak jd mlik dorg..ape ni??ak bkn laki,yg blh kawin 4..hmm...nk kate ak cntik,ak ni x cntik pun..rmai lg prfect dr ak..but why Am nk jgk kt ak??wlau ape pun yg jd,ati,prasan n cnte ak just 4 S..lawak plak ble tringt sume ni..hehe..yela,dlu ak ingt ak ni xlawa xde sape pun nk,but now spai org brebut..Am ckp last nite,die nk jgk kawin ngn ak..gler btl ar!i still cant blieve all this can hapen 2 me..k ar..pnjang sgt dh ak story ni.hmm....bye2..!

Buntu...

hohoi!!dh lme ak x story kt cni..hmm..mcm2 yg trjd kt ak spnjang ak x story kt cni..mcm2 problem..ni brkaitan ati n prasaan ak..ak tgh confuse ni.ape ak nk buat??ak dh buntu..prasaan ak skrg cmpur-baur..ak x blh nk luahkn kt dlm ni.org yg taw prob ak just izzati..i really miss him..i asked him last saturday klu x clap,i asked him,can he accept me back if i wanna be together again with him?his answer is'he can accept me back bcoz his love only 4 MARIAM JAMILA BT ARIFFIN'..i really suprise n trharu with his answer..i'll nver 4get him until i die..only him that can make me happy n he is very understanding..ak xleh nk story byk2..biarla ape yg ak rse ni hnye ade dlm ati ak.but i realy regret bcoz leave him 4 other guy that cant realy understand me well..spai cni je la my story.xde mood la..bye2!

ak tensyen gler ari ni..argh....!!!!!xde sape blh fhm prasaan ak..ak taw ak ank x brgne..ak ank drhake..klu di ikutkn ati ak ni,nk je ak bnuh dri..but xknla ak nk buat bnde 2..brdose bsr.ckupla dgn dose yg ak dh ade skrg ni..nti kt dlm kbur x trtnggung plak ak..ak sygkn mama..mama is everything 2 me..ak sdih sgt..i need someone now.ak nk g 1 tmpt yg blh bt ak tnang klu blh..ak nk jrit puas2 kt tmpt 2..ak tringin sgt nk g beach.dh lme ak x g beach..ak tringin sgt nk tgk matahari trbenam..hmm..ak klu blh ak xnk brgaduh dgn adk bradk ak..ak syg dorg..biarla ak klh.aslkn ak dgn dorg x brmsam muke lme2..ak x sgup brgduh ngn dorg..lbh2 lg akak ak.ak kn rpat ngn die..ak sdih sgt..ak rse cm nk nangis lg.but i need 2 bare whatever hapen..

First day!

hohoi..!!mcm mne school ari ni??is it ok?4 me,today's school a bit boring..ckgu kbyknnye same like last year..hmm..ak klu blh xnk ckgu yg same like last year especially bio n fzik..subjek jd x intresting pun with that 2 teachers.but ape2 pun dorg dh bg ak ilmu n ak msti brtrima kasih kt dorg n brsyukur bcoz ajar ak yg a bit slow n blur ni..hehehe..ak ni blur ke?rse2nye ye kot..slow 2 mmg..td at school,rmai org yg tgur psl muke ak..yela,dh brparut mcm kne chicken pox..this is all bcoz of pimples..geram gak ak td with their question.buat ak malu n xde kyakinan dri je nk duk at school..kcik ati pun ade..ape2 pun this year ak dh form 5.ak xleh x dtg school slalu like last year..sakit mcm mne pun,ak kne kuatkn smangat tuk nk g school..but form 5's silibous mcm intresting ckit..okla,until here i can write 4 today..dh pnt..later when i've time,i'll story again.bye2!!gud nite all!!